Challenge 4: Activities 21-27

I think I missed a few days after Day 18 (Thursday) when I did three activities (18-20) and learned about the Edamame Threat.

Day 19: I was home with a sick boy, so the thing I had booked to do that day didn’t happen. I had to reschedule.

Day 20: That was Saturday. I can’t remember what I did on Saturday.

Activity 21: Approach someone I met once a few years ago and reintroduce myself.

This was an opportunity activity, because I hadn’t planned to do it, but the chance came up so I went with it. I was at an event and saw someone who I follow on Twitter and who I’d met several years ago, but I wasn’t totally sure it was her. I kept staring at her to try and figure it out, and felt really awkward. Finally she and I were in each other’s vicinity so I took a deep breath and said hi. Turns out it was her and we have a brief chat.

Fearometer: 5/10. I was pretty nervous.
How I felt before doing it: Nervous and that only built up the more I thought about doing it.
How I felt while I was doing it: Awkward at first, but we had common interests so it was fine.
Would I do it again: I have introduced myself to random Twitter people in the street if I’ve interacted with them a bit, so probably. Depends on the person.

Activity 22: Get an outstanding medical check
Won’t go into details here, but in 2013 I was asked to get medical clearance so that I could do something I’d wanted to do. It has taken me this long to make the appointment.

Fearometer: 2/10 I was only slightly worried that maybe there would be some issue that had cropped up that I wasn’t aware of
How I felt before doing it: Just wanted it to be over. Doctor was running late. I had 30 minutes to get through. (Lesson for #fixwhatbugsyou – the doctor will always be late, even if you call to ask whether they are on time and are told they are. Take a book. Write a blog post. Don’t waste time with the trashy waiting room magazines. They will rot your brain.)
How I felt while I was doing it: Fine once it became apparent there wasn’t anything to worry about.

Would I do it again: Yes

Activity 23: Have a Tarot reading
This has been something on my wanna do list for ages, but I never knew how to go about organising this or what to expect. I know a little bit about the Tarot but felt very awkward about having a reading because I’m not an expert and had no idea what I might find out.

On Twitter earlier in the week one of my friends said she had had a reading and that the person doing the readings, Jodi, was giving away 20 free readings (she still is – click the link to get in touch!) to help her make sure what she was doing all worked before she went into business. I felt a bit awkward asking someone I’d never interacted with before if I could be one of her guinea pigs, but she was happy to sign me up and, striking while the iron was hot- before I could chicken out –  I set it up for the next day and we connected over Skype.

It was amazing, and I’ll write a fuller post on this a bit later because it’s inspired an upcoming challenge. The thing that grabbed me was the insight into my situation that Jodi and I read into the cards – she calls it a ‘collaborative reading’ –  and it left me feeling like I was completely on the right track with what I was doing. There are so many things that are coming together about this situation right now, I feel like a little step I took about a month ago has started to build momentum. Ad it also manifested in an unexpected way a couple of days ago, which assures me I am doing the right things and is pushing me to keep going.

Fearometer: 6/10
How I felt before doing it: Nervous about what might come out of the reading. Scared about connecting to someone online I’d never interacted with before.
How I felt while I was doing it: More and more relaxed as time passed. Jodi was very easy to talk to and I was really grateful to have had this opportunity.
Would I do it again: Absolutely

Activity 24: Go to the accountant and get my tax done
Oh the dreaded tax time. I’m not sure what I was worried about. I keep good records and most of the information gets downloaded into the ATO site anyway, so it’s really no big deal. I mainly needed to go to the accountant to get some advice on the disposal of some assets. That sounds serious. It’s not. It ended up being under $50 on a section of the tax form I never knew existed. It’s all done now and I’m expecting my snappy $80 refund any day now.

I’m almost embarrassed to put this in as a year of fear activity.

Activity 25: Ask someone for something they have no obligation to give me or expectation that I might ask for

Fearometer: 4/10. I always get a bit nervous asking this person for something
How I felt before doing it: Nervous

How I felt while I was doing it: A bit more anxious as at first they didn’t know exactly what I was asking so I had to explain myself again
Would I do it again: Probably if my desire for a thing outweighs my nerves

Activity 26: Ask to exchange a product I bought that’s the wrong one
This is a silly thing to be anxious about doing, but I always dread having to go back to a shop and ask to exchange something. It’s not as bad if the product if faulty but if I’ve stuffed up and bought the wrong thing because I didn’t check what I needed first, I feel like a bit of an idiot.
Fearometer: 2/10
How I felt before doing it: Nervous that they would say no, you got it wrong, suck it up buttercup
How I felt while I was doing it: Fine once they said yes
Would I do it again: I guess so.

Activity 27: Secret squirrel!
Activity completed. I am annoyed to have been put into the situation that made this activity happen, but it’s done now.

Photo of the week. Me 10 years ago. Who needs a professional when you have a self-timer and a black velvet sheet to throw over the book case right? Seriously I wish I had had some lovely pregnancy shots done, but it didn’t occur to me at the time, and less than three weeks after this picture, boom, all over.

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Facing Fear: day 2/30

Soooo, yesterday was Day 1 of the Facing Fear 30-day challenge. I decided to start off with something that wasn’t too threatening and decided this would be to wear something I wouldn’t normally wear to work.

I normally wear short skirts with bright prints. I buy them from Spiceworld (cough) in Hobart and I have heaps of them. Enough for one for every day of the week, summer and winter, and them some. Admittedly I normally team them with a dull black cardigan, but also often with bright matching leggings, to break up the black. I’m not afraid of colour.

So where to go with this one? Well I also own some funky lacy leggings in bright pink. I think I’ve only worn them once. It’s winter so wearing them by themselves isn’t an option (I don’t like the cold), but I can layer them over a plain colour and they look pretty sweet. By themselves though, not anything I’d feel too uncomfortable wearing. Team it with a very short velveteen (possibly, I am no fabric expert) skirt that I bought when I was a lot less baby-belly-endowed and presto! Something I feel very awkward going out in. I felt like it barely covered my bum. It wasn’t much longer than my short jacket. Someone would probably take a photo of me and post it in one of those horribly judge “30 things a woman over 30/35/40 should never wear” articles on the internet. (By the way, if you ever read one of those articles, you need to counterbalance it with The Truth, which can be found in this colourful post from Warning Curves Ahead.)

When I planned this activity, I expected it to be a 1 on the fear-ometer. A little uncomfortable but nothing to send me into a panic. (Anything that ranks 0 gets struck off the list. There has to be a little discomfort involved.) Once I saw how freaking short this skirt was, I started to get a bit anxious and wondered if this was a good idea. That bumped it up to 2. I don’t know how I expected people to react. I’ve never had anyone tell me to my face they don’t like what I’m wearing, so thinking about this logically, they weren’t going to start today just because I was wearing a skirt that was a bit shorter and a bit tighter than I usually wear.

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It’s shorter than I thought!

And so it came to pass. I got a “look” from a passing motorist when Kramstable and I were walking to the bus, and the only other reaction was from someone at work, who said they liked my leggings.

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What’s not to like?

In hindsight, a day that is below zero might not have been the best day to wear lacy leggings, but it was too late once I went out into the icy blast and I had to live with it.

Activity 1: Wear something you wouldn’t normally wear
Fear-ometer rating pre-challenge: 2/10
How I felt doing it: A bit self-conscious.
How I felt after doing it: Chillaxed. No one cared.
Would I do this again: Yes. Not on days where the temperature is less than zero.

Activity 2: Make an appointment to get my tax done

The scary part is probably going to be to actually attend this appointment, but I’ve never been to an accountant before so I was a bit nervous going in to make the appointment.

Fear-ometer rating pre-challenge: 1/10
How I felt doing it: A bit nervous about going into somewhere I’d never been before, but it’s not like anything was going to actually happen today, so I went through with it.
How I felt after doing it: Fine now. Finding all the paperwork might be a bit of a challenge.
Would I do this again: Yes. Ask me again after I’ve actually had the work done.

P365 – Day 283 – tax time

I have no idea why completing this simple little form* took me so long tonight, but it did.

It would have been a lot easier if the tax office’s online system was compatible with my computer! I’ve already ranted enough about that tonight so I won’t do it again. I just want to post the bloody thing and be done with it.

* Appears simple. Isn’t. Not little either.