I am really struggling with the “clarity” project.
I think I’m finding it hard to lock things like my values and purpose into writing, because I think once they’re committed in writing they’ll be locked in and I’ll never be able to change them. It’s an issue I’ve struggled with my whole life. If I commit to something, it rules everything else out – so rather than make a conscious choice (because that implies a forever commitment) I’ve gone along with whatever has come up at the time. Because somehow making a not-choice-which-still-commits-you-to-something has less power than an actual choice.
Looking back, this hasn’t been a good strategy, and is probably the reason I’ve stayed in the same career path for as long as I have.
I’m trying really hard to do this exercise as a “work in progress” activity rather than a “once it’s written it’s set in stone and can never change” thing. But I still have this reluctance to commit anything to writing.
And I have made progress. See!
Listen to the Asian Efficiency Podcast on creating a manifesto and start to write these 5 documents
- I listened to it and I made a start on the “perfect day” document
- I totally did this, and I started three of the more difficult ones.
- This is it.
- Done. It’s here.
And I saw the most amazing clouds the other day
Goals for this week:
Finish the “perfect day” document.
Start three more crosswords. Finish at least one.
Write a blog post on what I learned this week.